November 14th

"Jesse: I don't know, I think that if I could just accept the fact that my life is supposed to be difficult. You know, that's what to be expected, then I might not get so pissed-off about it and I'll just be glad when something nice happens. "

Ive started taking pictures again. Only little quick things, captured on my phone camera, but atleast im doing it. I`ll see if i can post some of them up on here. If nothing else youll get to see a little bit more of my enviroment.

Also...ive started to write again. As anyone that has ever looked at one of my journals knows, my spelling is terrible and my grasp of the english language is appaling. But i do atleast have the excuse that im dyslexic, so its not just lazyness.
But even so, i have always loved to write. Im the sort of person that ideas come to all the time. i wish i could draw, or paint, or sing, or some other creative thing. But as it is i have to funnel my ideas through writing.
I may post one of my stories here soon. Maybe the old first draft of a story that i wrote that has actually been optioned to be a tv episode (although ive heard nothing for over 8 months..so i dont think its going to happen)

Life in the UK is starting to get me down. Its turning into such a nanny state that you cant do anything without being told that its too dangerous...or not safe. I appreciate that there needs to be some control, but when they start having videos of bonfires and fireworks instead of the real thing, just incase someone gets hurt.
And the racial tension in the air, the anti gay feeling, the rich vs poor devide.
And more than anything...the slow slide into stupidity. I know im no genius....(well..um...actually i could get into mensa...but thats not what i mean)...but for gods sake. I work with people that are over 30...that have not picked up a book sense they were at school. The 20-30 year olds dont know film or music from before the time they were born.
I think one of the most dissapointing things i saw recently was this quote by a rights group complaining about the BORAT movie
"we understand that he is trying to make a comment about america...but we feel that most people are not clever enough to understand it"
So we are suppose to give up TRYING to do stuff that has a small amout of intelligence or witt or thought in it...just because most people dont understand it?
That really makes me sad.


Lyric for Today
"Some day I will find the secret
to your social chemistry
Then I'll print it on a t-shirt
and it'll make you want to be with me
If I wear it past your work
you'll see other guys are jerks
Much like pheromones for flies
you will not avoid my eyes

There's a lot I will never do
Some fantastic, I know it's true
But none as much as my want to be with you"